Father,
I feel so broken. I can't fight it. I can't get through it. I can't handle the ups and downs. Really - I feel like shit. It's probably not appropriate for me to cuss in a prayer, but you know I'm thinking it already anyway.
I want this to be over. I want to go home to heaven. I don't have the energy to keep this up. I want you to bring me home. Please. This life seems so pointless. Full of heartache and pain and trouble.
I know I should have hope in you and desire to fulfill Your purpose for my life. How am I supposed to get back to that? I am selfish. I am lazy. I am pathetic. I know I shouldn't talk this way to myself. I believe this is Satan's hand in my life. But he is strong and I am weak.
I know you are stronger. Please fight this for me. I can't do it. I can't.
Shared from my prayer journal
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